and its all because of belugs. she found my other account through my friends tumblr and saw a post that was about her but i mean it was just a generic fuck you post, like no names, no hints thatd itd be her, nothing. so she makes a post on her tumblr and is like im sorry that you cant be with the guy you like but i hate ppl who hate me just cause of who im dating. like no bitch no. yes i resent you a little for being with him but hes had other gfs that ive not only been fine with but actually liked alot so i dont hate you because of him, i hate you because of YOU. i think shes fake andfake people are one of my biggest hatreds in the world. and also shes hated me and talked shit bout me YEARS ago, long before this whole thing so dont think this newfound dislike for you is cause of him. and the best part, she defriends me on facebook….SO MATURE and her profile is totally public so what point besides the fact that youre a stupid twat have you made? oh yeah thats right NONE. 

and now she must of told him and hes mad at me. weve been in a pokewar for months and its been days since hes poked me back. hes online right now as i type and nothing, which means hes mad. honestly hes never been mad at me before so i dnt even know how to deal with this. a part of me is like fuck it who cares dont worry, but the other half is letting this tear me up inside. its one thing for him not t talk to mecause hes with her but for it to be because hes mad at me makes me feel like shit. and i cant aplolgize or say anything cause i have to pretend i have no idea that any of this is occuring with her and it sucks. like hes the one person in the world that i dont want to hate/be mad at me and knowing theres nthing i can do is the worst part. 

she must be so happy about it too which pisses me off even more and makes me even more mad. like things were going better than they have in a while just for it all to crash and burn, just like it always does….

merry christmas to me