he comes sweeping into my life making any progress i had made shot to hell. i had come to accept that there had been absolutely nothing at all communication wise between us in like two weeks so i assumed it was finally done. i was surrounding myself with other things. he wasnt on my mind constantly, i didnt torture myself laying up all night replaying scenarios in my head, i didnt feel dissapointed waking up and not seeing a notification or a text from him. i was moving on happily, without him.

and then as quickly as he left, he came back. well not completely or how id like him too but his presence had returned. basically i was picking my friend up and we were driving past whatshisnames house and as we were he was getting out of his car. it was the first time in weeks that ive actually seen him like what do i do, do i wave, do i beep, damn he looks good etc. so as we got to him i decided to beep and he turned around and my friend waved and i flipped him off :p it was half meant jokingly the other half dead serious lmao ut i was going to a concert  that night so i made a status about it, so i come home after hanging with my friend to get ready and i go onto facebook and see that he not only poked me but commented on my status asking about the concert. so of course i freak, an get all excited and once again ive fell for it. and then the poke war errupted once again and i get all excited even though i try so hard not to get my hopes up.

but it doesnt stop there. so i go to the gas station down the street and there this GORGEOUS worker there that always flirts with me and calls me his wife ;D but anway, he like made me park away from the pumps once i was done cause he wasnt done talking to me and there was a line so he comes over and is talking to me and is all in my face and all of a sudden i look over and whatshisname and elugs are stopped at the corner waiting t turn thats RIGHT there and i see him looking like wtf and so im like YES but no wait it gets better. so i leave like two minutes later and i turn up his street just as hes getting out of her car and she drives away and i watch as he stops at the bottom of his stairs and watches me turn onto my street. FUCKING DIED 

so yeah my mind is a fucking mess once again and i dont really mind….

hopefully its showing him what hes missing :]