a year ago i was talking to him everyday

i was happier than i could ever imagine, not believing things were working out and going my way and that my life was that aamzing

and now im sitting here alone, without even a happy new year text to show he still cares of my exsistence

ughh i wanna say that 2012 will be better but right now its really not….

maybe since last year started out amazing and was suckish at the end

this year willl start out suckish and get better at the end

just in time for the world to end……..just my luck

at least i dont think, considering he started poking me again on facey. but what i dont understand is why he’ll poke me in the morning and then be online for the past hour and be active but then not poke me back……like wtf

like i seriously think he just doesnt poke me when hes with her even though i thought he wasnt with her i mean i could be wrong but its just annoying like WHEN YOU START THE MOTHER FUCKING POKE WAR YOU POKE ME THE FUCK BACK\

but at least hes not mad at me that makes me happpy

ughhhhh hopefully 2012 will be my year <3

and its all because of belugs. she found my other account through my friends tumblr and saw a post that was about her but i mean it was just a generic fuck you post, like no names, no hints thatd itd be her, nothing. so she makes a post on her tumblr and is like im sorry that you cant be with the guy you like but i hate ppl who hate me just cause of who im dating. like no bitch no. yes i resent you a little for being with him but hes had other gfs that ive not only been fine with but actually liked alot so i dont hate you because of him, i hate you because of YOU. i think shes fake andfake people are one of my biggest hatreds in the world. and also shes hated me and talked shit bout me YEARS ago, long before this whole thing so dont think this newfound dislike for you is cause of him. and the best part, she defriends me on facebook….SO MATURE and her profile is totally public so what point besides the fact that youre a stupid twat have you made? oh yeah thats right NONE. 

and now she must of told him and hes mad at me. weve been in a pokewar for months and its been days since hes poked me back. hes online right now as i type and nothing, which means hes mad. honestly hes never been mad at me before so i dnt even know how to deal with this. a part of me is like fuck it who cares dont worry, but the other half is letting this tear me up inside. its one thing for him not t talk to mecause hes with her but for it to be because hes mad at me makes me feel like shit. and i cant aplolgize or say anything cause i have to pretend i have no idea that any of this is occuring with her and it sucks. like hes the one person in the world that i dont want to hate/be mad at me and knowing theres nthing i can do is the worst part. 

she must be so happy about it too which pisses me off even more and makes me even more mad. like things were going better than they have in a while just for it all to crash and burn, just like it always does….

merry christmas to me

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like tonight was good tonight was fabulous

and then you fucking ruin it with a sentence, a mother fucking sentence

like ive never hated anything more than i hate you

i should be excited and i try to keep reminiding myself that tommorrow im hanging out with my dream guy……literallly dream guy but still i wish it was him….like i should be jealous but i mean its just hard cause it should be me with him not you and the concept of me losing him willl never fully sink in

i always have in the back of my mind oh he’ll come back its a matter of time

but this time i dont think he wil…

that i need you more than anything

i need you to vent to even if you dont fully understand or listen to every last word

i need to run to you and escape 

i need a shoulder to cry on and for you to hold me and tell me everythings gonna be alright

i need you now more than ever and you’re the furthest you’ve ever been